A blog with my thoughts and advices

The one about How you feel disgusted by other people’s love

corik — Sun, 12 Jul 2009 19:49:59 +0000

Song to listen to while reading this article: Michael Jackson – Give in to me

It is not noble at all, but sometimes all the love that you see around makes you uncomfortable. Disgusted. Envious.
You see this cute couple at the train station. She is going on a holiday, while he is staying home, but just for a few days. They can’t take their eyes of each other. They hold each other tight in the arms, and softly kiss. They play with each other. She caresses his hair, while he is gently touching her lips. They seem amazing to him. They look into each others’ eyes just to discover themselves there. There is such chemistry, that you can feel it in the air. It doesn’t matter that there are people around. For the happy couple, it’s only them. Nobody else counts here. They are in their own world, sharing this moment of love. They won’t be touching for a short while, but that feels like such a long time for them. They will miss each other so much. The train’s about to leave, but they still can’t let go of each other. They kiss even when the train start its’ motion. He waves at her with a few tears in his eyes, but he’s a strong man, and he’ll be over it, after the train leaves. But it’s hard. They will talk over the phone but still, the embrace, the others’ perfume can’t be replaced by only the sound of their voice. But they will have fun during the period they are apart, and when they’ll meet again, it’s going to be like they haven’t been separated at all. When you see such a couple, you, the one who recently gave up on love, can barely keep yourself together. You feel like crying, like bursting into tears right there, in front of everyone, telling them to stop showing off their love in front of someone who’s suffering. But you bite your lip and just wait for your train to arrive, trying to erase these moments from your memory. You miss the times when you felt like they do. The moment when you were held, when you were kissed, when your face was caressed by your love, when you could wake up near them on the beach to see the sunrise, when you could feel the warmth of their body touching yours. You then have an epiphany. You were in the same situation a few weeks ago. In the same place. Doing the same things. Being happy. But this is now. You can’t go back to that moment. You just stare at an empty space.
At those times, you just want to go to the person who hurt you and made you feel such a discontent towards other people’s love. You want to ask them why. Why did you pretend you felt something for me? Why did you hurt me? Why did you play with my heart? Why did you use me? Why did you lie to me? Why did you feel you have the right to make fun of me? Why did you leave me? Why don’t you love me? Why…

The one about the 21 reasons to be my baby

corik — Sun, 12 Jul 2009 19:23:19 +0000

Song to listen to while reading this article: Ronettes – Be My Baby

21 reasons to be my baby…
…i am the one for you
…we understand each other
…your eyes make me happy and my lips just want to melt into yours
…i allowed you to touch my soul in ways nobody could
…we discovered the world together
…you are music to my ears
…we kissed under the moonlight
…you learned new emotions with me
…i know when you are sad and when you are happy
…we have fun together
…you taught me how to laugh, i taught you how to be patient
…we watched the sunrise and the sunset together
…we can make beautiful babies
…you embraced new passions, and you shared mine
…i was there for you when you needed me
…you saw me at my highs and my lows
…i saw you at your highs and lows
…i love you like no one else can
…i simply love you, in the most unselfish and pure way
…i love you
…you know we were meant to be together

The one about Letting go of love

corik — Sat, 11 Jul 2009 21:17:51 +0000

Song to listen to while reading this article: Pink – Please don’t leave me

Once in a while you find someone that you like. It might be love at first sight, or there may not be any interest at that time. It can happen that after getting to know someone well, you discover they have many of the qualities you are looking for in a person. Without even realizing, you come to fall deeper and deeper in amazement with this person. You have a lot of fun with them, you do things you never did before, you discover a whole new world of possibilities, and you experience new feelings. It can be perfect.
But what happens when this dream starts to fade, when the joy turns to a bitter feeling? When instead of being happy and smiling all the time, you become more often sad than happy…instead of fun you experience frustration and you start being depressed…when you find yourself crying over events you remember from some while ago, when everything seemed to be so sweet and wonderful…that special time you had at the seaside while watching some racing event for the first time…when you were surrounded by huge mountains covered with silky snow,while in front of your eyes a new and exciting sport unfolded…when you found the courage, taken from their embrace, to face your fear of skating…when you started enjoying the winter and the large snowflakes…when they held you in their arms and told you that they missed you…
There is a moment when you realize that something is about to change…that you need to do something for yourself, in order not to suffer anymore. You realize you are a human being that deserves more than spending a single second trying to figure out what you did wrong. It wasn’t you that brought up the coldness you feel in your relationship. Sadly, there is nothing you can do to make the situation revert to what it used to be. The great moments that you had are a distant memory, and even though your heart tells you that nothing will be the same anymore, even though it hurts like hell to abandon this relationship, that is exactly what you have to do. It is the moment when you sense you are worth something good and real. It is the moment when you realize you need to be able to smile the whole day and enjoy the beauties around you,like you used to do. It is the most difficult thing to let go of this love that felt so unique, and that felt like it was THE one. But you have to wake up from the dream. It is the moment of ultimate lucidity.
You have to let go of the love that once felt so right, when…
…you feel sad more often that you smile
…you find yourself crying at the most inappropriate moments, like when you are at work, traveling or out for a drink
…you can’t find the magic you once did
…you don’t get to spend as much time with them as you used to
…they seem to be avoiding you
…you spend time hoping they will call or come visit…but they don’t
…you lose your self esteem and start to hate yourself
…you feel there’s someone else holding them while you sit on the floor,looking at the full moon, and think of them
…you do by yourself things that you used to do together
…you know in your heart this is not the way it was suppose to be…
It is sad but…you have to learn how to let go…you have to…Although you love them. You have to.